Pop Culture, Theory & Essay

Sun, Moon, Stars, Quasars and Sh*t

This is skydiving apparel. This is also something I could see Kanye wearing because he's trying to expand his horizons thru fashion. Help us.

This is skydiving apparel. This is also something I could see Kanye wearing because he’s trying to expand his horizons thru fashion. Help us.

I’m going to share a little about myself here. Sharing is caring has long been one of my mantras. I believe in community service of all types. Sharing is one of them. You may not have to take your clothes off to have a good time, but if you don’t put a little love in your heart, well, then you’re no better than an animal.

I just quoted somebody. That’s a bit more than a little but then not quite a few. Back to the lecture at hand.

I’ve often felt that life was very limiting. Not to be all doomsday or anything, but at some point during the course of my short 34 years on this planet I just felt…limited. I couldn’t fly or hug a unicorn or catch that damn pot of gold. While people tell you that if you work hard and are smart and study and sh*t that you can do anything you want to, it’s not actually true. Like, I stay reaching for the stars. Not proverbially either. I actually reach for them because, well, I get bored a lot. I’m like the guy in that one commercial who reached the end of the Internet. That sh*t f*cked me up because I feel that way a lot.

Fret not, I’m not about to off myself or do anything too crazy. All of my friends know that the one thing that need not happen in my life is boredom. Bad things happen when I get bored. I haven’t burned down any homes but I’ve gotten really closed to being profiled in a few national publications for bad decisions I made out of pure boredom. It’s like my kryptonite. Boredom drives my quest and thirst for the unknown. I didn’t read Encyclopedia’s when I was a kid because I wanted to know what was in them, I read them because I read everything else. To some degree, my child is a saving grace for me and my mind because I get to witness rebirth and new fun sh*t through the eyes of somebody who has no idea that one day, she may get to the end of the Internet.

Point is, I just feel like Earth and all its splendor comes with certain restrictions. I have seen lots and there are lots of things I haven’t but I’m still like…f*ck what else is there? Like the Pyramids are cool, my nword, but can somebody show me the tetrahedron that was man-made somewhere? And I’m not rich at all. I don’t even have the money to TRULY test the limits of life. So imagine if I was rich…

…I’d be somebody like Rihanna. Y’all remember when that crazy motherf*cker got a tattoo CHISELED onto her skin? Yeah. Of course you do. Here’s the thing. I get it. I completely understood. I can’t imagine what its like to be young, rich, and LITERALLY have the entire world as your oyster. It’s why rich people do crazy stuff like get themselves frozen. They’re bored and testing the limits of humanity because, well, they’ve kind of done this human sh*t. This only handicaps true creatives though. Some folks are rich and are just happy to be that way and are content within the confines of whatever world they’ve created. They’re goal-oriented creative. It’s like Big Boi vs Andre 3000.

Andre 3000 is clearly a creative individual who has no effin’ idea what to do with his life. At least he didn’t for a while. That’s why it made perfect sense to me that he was showing up to concerts in turbins and goggles and diapers with really furry Uggs. My man was just trying to explore his mind in every way possible. He was trying and his music started to reflect it. It’s why you get The Love Below. My man was outchea trying to just do…something else.

Clearly this is an issue that afflicts tons of people across the world. And especially some ‘flicted people.

Lil Wayne seems to have lost his ever loving mind but really, he just needs a new challenge. When you’ve literally achieved everything you can, you start making rock albums and singing too much and only rap about p*ssy because, well, what the hell else do you do when you spend 90 percent of your day fried out of your gourd because you’re trying to transcend life.

I can’t speak for any of these people. I have no clue if they feel that way. But it sure seems like it. And I feel that stuff. It’s like working in Word and they only give you limited fonts but you need new fonts because what you have doesn’t allow you to fully express yourself. Some people see what’s in front of them and feel like they have all that they need. They express themselves and make great product, whatever it may be, via the resources in front of them. Others see whats in front of them and realize that if those things exist, the possibility for more also exists. So they seek those things out. I’m one of those other people. The rush of the experience requires you to throw caution to the wind.

Funny enough, I’m also very much an “it is what it is” person about certain things. I recognize “checkmate” very quickly into the game. So while I’m not rich and I’m often bored I’ll continue to just f*cking rock like I do. But I’ll spend a lot of nights trying to figure out if I get on my roof, and I try to reach for a star, will I actually be able to reach one if I try hard enough? And if I fall and hit the ground, will I really die? Yeah, that’s the problem with being one of these people…death doesn’t really scare you. The not knowing makes it enticing enough to wonder what’s really going on afterwards.

Mind you, I realize this is all mental. And I can always watch vh1 to dumb it down. Shots fired. But this is why so many artists spend so much time talking about space, lasers, bars, quasars and sh*t.

Luckily, I ain’t a crazy motherf*cker and I’ve got a child. So I’ll just chill on my porch, stare at the sky, and wonder if Rihanna grabbed one yet.

A star…not Young Chris’s balls.

I wonder what Kanye is up to.

-VSB P aka THE ARSONIST aka MR. WHAT THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT? aka GIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRL HE A 3

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Damon Young

Panama Jackson is pretty fly for a light guy. He used to ship his frito to Tito in the District, but shipping prices increased so he moved there to save money. When he's not saving humanity with his words or making music with his mouth, you can find him at your mama's mama's house drinking her fine liquors. Most importantly, he believes the children are our future.

  • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

    PANTHERSSSSSSS! SQUAD UPPPPPPPP!!!!!! WHAT WAS THAT YALL WERE TALKING LAST NIGHT? AND AS FAR AS PASS INTERFERENCE ON GRONK IS CONCERNED? (cuz I know one of you salty ninjas will bring it up) BRADY UNDERTHREW THAT BALL. GINN PICKED IT OFF. GAME IS OVER. WE WIN. PANTHERS.

    • Sahel

      Good win. Saints are up next

    • Discolored Nigerian

      all caps doe?!?! Congratulations. So your team is who again? Pink Panther?

      • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

        My team is the winning team. Stay mad. Haha :-)

        • Discolored Nigerian

          Oh my dear. How can I be mad, when I don’t even know any other team, apart from Steelers? I’m happy for you boo…..

      • http://vagabondaesthetics.tumblr.com/ Ricky

        You say that like the Pink Panther wasn’t one of the smoothest cartoon characters of all time.

        • Discolored Nigerian

          nope….PP was and still is smooth.

    • h.h.h.
      • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

        Haha. Stay mad. Next.

    • http://tripsixes.com/ Trip

      *Nods head* Victory in the face of doubt never gets old. Enjoy, AP :)

      • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

        You know what’s crazy. Each week I get told that the Panthers aren’t relevant until they play XY Team. We play said team and win then in the same breath I get told the Panthers still aren’t relevant until we play YZ Team.

        The Panthers need to play and beat Jesus, Mary, all of Abraham’s descendants, Martin Luther King Jr. and cure AIDs to be a relevant team in the NFL.

    • Val

      Nice win over the Cheatriots, AP. You’re back in it to win it.

      • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

        Thank you. I’m glad we pulled out the win over the Pats. This was really a win for America.

        • Val

          Lol

        • http://daratmathis.wordpress.com/ dtafakari

          I BOL, but you speak truth. Hatriots.

    • http://stanoffewwords.wordpress.com/ Tristan

      clears throat

      blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

    • panamajackson

      This is a really big picture.

      • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

        I wish it were bigger

        • Sahel

          It is

          • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

            what, your clitoris??

            • SuperStrings

              dannnnnnnnnnnnng

        • Val

          That’s what she said!

          Dang, Sahel, you really slept on this one.

          • DB

            He did not. You never want her to say that.

    • panamajackson

      This is a really big picture.

  • Sahel

    A wingsuit,that ish is terrifying as heck. Very few people in the world are certified to use it. And i happen to know a cool spot in Norway if anyone is interested in trying it out,it will grow hair on your chest,even if your a woman. Life is simple,you can either live it and die. Or live it and be remembered

    • LMNOP

      You live and die either way, personally I’d like to see my grandkids grow up more than jump out of a plane, but I guess it takes all sorts.

    • http://www.WordsDontDoItJustice.com/ Ruthless Wonder

      Unless they started making those for guys my size I’m out. It would be an interesting experience though I’m sure. Besides we all know that no one is getting out of life alive, might as well do cool things until the end.

  • http://vagabondaesthetics.tumblr.com/ Ricky

    I am confused Panama. I need to reread this in the morning when I’m more clear headed.

  • http://tripsixes.com/ Trip
    • kidvideo

      Yeah…I caught the JS reference also(No JS).

      • Sigma_Since 93

        That video was the hot back in the 80’s; you would hope the NBC video show would play this and Cool it Now by New Edition.

    • Epsilonicus

      I dont get it. Maybe I am too young

      • kidvideo
        • I Am Your People

          I **REALLY** want Drake to remake this song

          • kidvideo

            It would make a great SNL parody…

          • http://www.twitter.com/IluminatiNYC Todd

            WHY? WHY MUST YOU MAKE BABY JESUS CRY? I can only imagine the AIDS fundraising videos that this would inevitably spawn. :)

    • miss t-lee

      Yep…as soon as I read the song lyric, I thought of the video…lol

  • Discolored Nigerian

    I am in TEARS! I’m surpressing laughter lest the neighbours know your name!!! This post has NO sense at all. I wanna drank whatever it was you sipped

    -Andre 3000, was not bored when he wore that lay me at Jesus’ feet on Calvary’s crossings atrocity. It is because he had been BADUmatized! That chick’s donk possesses mystical powers that make men loose their mind. She had Common wearing potatoe sacks at one point! LAWD. I’ll never forget wondering why they let him out of the hospital. The other one, was out in England laying pipe to married Commonwealth holders

    -Kanye is up to a whole lot of validating his existence and motherphakking fashion icon status with his tour attire that looks like what I imagine John the Baptist wore in the wilderness preaching the gospel.

    • Sahel

      The post makes perfect sense. Free your mind and re read it

      • Discolored Nigerian

        dude. I GOT the post, hence the tears of laughter… I’m just expressing the RIDONCULOSITY of it.

      • Sandpaper

        Yep. Today’s comments should be very interesting. I will try to remain silent.

    • nillalatte

      Ha! Then wait until you read my post! Me and PJ are on the same plane.

      • Discolored Nigerian

        Queeeen!!! :) HeYYYY miss ya mama!! :)

        • nillalatte

          Hi Mami! Thank you. Life’s a bit out of control lately, but you know I can’t stay away too long. ;)

    • Jay

      Gasp… did you just call The Love Below an atrocity?!

      • Discolored Nigerian

        I called his ATTIRE an atrocity not his body of work.

    • SuperStrings

      Yeah, I’m wondering if Jay Electronic is ever going to drop his album.

      • Yoles

        he’s too busy dropping it off in the draws of a rothschild

        • SuperStrings

          The Rothschilds have so much wealth that it can’t be evaluated. Sheeeeeet I ain’t mad at him.

          • Sahel

            Did SS just condone sex for cash

      • http://vagabondaesthetics.tumblr.com/ Ricky

        The hip hop world won’t like the album.

      • miss t-lee

        Yep. March 32nd.

        • SuperStrings

          I hope it’s worth the wait and anticipation. Not like Big L.

          • miss t-lee

            As long as thewait has been, it’simpossible.

            • SuperStrings

              Yeah, well put March 32nd on your calendar anyway. lol

    • panamajackson

      Hey man, I was just drankin’ the juice of the champions. It’s called motivation.

    • panamajackson

      Hey man, I was just drankin’ the juice of the champions. It’s called motivation.

    • panamajackson

      And The Love Below is sheer genius thank you very much.

    • panamajackson

      And The Love Below is sheer genius thank you very much.

  • nillalatte

    Moderation is not nice. *pouting in the corner

    • nillalatte

      LOL… I have learned… do not EDIT your moderator blessed comment! LOL

  • I Am Your People
    • panamajackson

      I don’t know what just happened there.

  • iamnotakata

    Kanye is trash…and I am completely over him…then again I was never here for him to begin with…..

    Um so yeah this post albeit a little unorthodox I see where your coming from lol. It kind of makes sense when thinking about Andre 3000 though, but his change could be due to Erykah and her cray, but who knows.

    • http://stanoffewwords.wordpress.com/ Tristan

      that baduizm that ish that make your soul burn slow

    • SuperStrings

      I’ll admit that I’m a College Dropout fan. Also, I think Andre is just one of those people who are so creative that they can’t stay doing the same thing. I think Cee-lo is the same way.

      • http://TheNewEve.com/ Bunni

        Theyre the Dali’s and Van Gogh’s of our generation. They are so creative that they are perpetually bored by EVERYTHING.

        • SuperStrings

          Yep, and I love it because they push the boundaries. I’ll admit though that, out of pure selfishness, I still like to hear 3000 and Cee-lo spit verses. I feel like that about Mos Def too. He’s admitted that acting was his primary passion, not mc’ing. I’m like damb, you’re gifted at your secondary passion, and many people live and die without even finding their first one.

          • http://TheNewEve.com/ Bunni

            when you experience art from geniuses like 3000 and Cee-lo and Ye, it transcends everything. I remember the first time I saw a Dali painting in person….that raw, overwhelming, visceral effect is like none other…..cuz you KNOW you are witnessing something beyond average consciousness…..THAT alone is enough to hook me.

            • SuperStrings

              These folks are way beyond average consciousness. Some of it might be considered borderline insanity. John Coltrane said he was never able to actually play a song the way he envisioned it in his mind. I mean, his music was revolutionary and genius, so we can only imagine what must have been in his head.

              • http://TheNewEve.com/ Bunni

                I have a friend like that…..its almost torturous to be so alive in your mind and your environment not able to keep up with you. Most ppl in the 27 club–Hendrix, Joplin, Morrison, Cobain, Winehouse–their genius oftentimes led them to drug abuse and their demise. Its a beautiful yet scary thing to witness a genius trying to survive their own thoughts

                • SuperStrings

                  Yeah it’s gotta be tough. It’s not like you can just vent to your friends and family ’cause you’re soooooo far outside of what anyone else can really comprehend.

              • http://daratmathis.wordpress.com/ dtafakari

                I’m a bit sleepy this morning and I read:

                “These folks are way beyond average concussions.”

                I think I had it right.

                • SuperStrings

                  Hey that works too. I don’t think it takes away from the point. lol

      • Sandpaper

        If only Cee-lo didn’t sell out. He was so supposed to be the third member of OutKast. Imagine how awesome that would have been.

        • SuperStrings

          Yeah, I’ve thought about that. I wonder sometimes how long that would have worked. Can that many truly creative people be in the same group that long? It is nice to imagine the possibility though.

        • http://vagabondaesthetics.tumblr.com/ Ricky

          I don’t think Cee-Lo sold out. I just think at times post Goodie Mob his weirdness/electiveness just lined out with popular appeal at the time. I mean outside of his Christmas album there really isn’t any album outside of his Goodie Mob works that I feel is inauthentic to Cee-Lo. For context though, my introduction to him was through Gnarls Barkley and then his solo works.

          • SuperStrings

            His solo joints are the business. I can bump those on any day.

          • Sandpaper

            Your context explains it. He went from the most conscious rapper with the deepest verses to that other stuff he does now. Some context from me that fits PJ’s post; In ’95 when soul food dropped, I was sliding down ropes out of helicopters.

    • panamajackson

      Unorthodox? I thought this was normal for me.

      • http://missrosen.wordpress.com/ esa

        you are the iconoclast of the crew ~*~

  • Geneva Girl

    So I’m not alone in my need for fonts. I write most things in Arial because I don’t like serifs, but for somethings I just need a little more pizzazz. Sometimes my writing just doesn’t need to sound good it needs to look good too. I have an entire Pinterest folder of new fonts to use for invitations, letters or whatever needs some style because some days Arial is just not enough.

    • panamajackson

      Fonts let me realize how limiting life is. I NEED TO EXPRESS MYSELF WITH MORE FONTS THAN JUST TIMES NEW ROMAN AND COURIER

      • ForeverCC

        try wingding

        • http://TheNewEve.com/ Bunni

          u mean the illuminati font? lol

  • http://stanoffewwords.wordpress.com/ Tristan

    feel like i need a blunt to understand this…and im tired…and i dont wanna be here when ap gets here

    • Michelle

      Hee heee… And I don’t even like the Panthers and Cam “Garanimals Sweaters” Newton.
      But I will say that I just don’t like any team that is associated with fans that come from Boston.

      • http://stanoffewwords.wordpress.com/ Tristan

        ouch.

    • http://www.twitter.com/IluminatiNYC Todd

      Justice for the Tuck Rule continues. :) And don’t forget Spygate. Y’all ain’t won a Super Bowl since they got those cameras out of your hands. *cackle* J-E-T-S JETS! JETS! JETS!

    • http://daratmathis.wordpress.com/ dtafakari

      If the Pats were robbed, it’s karma for them cheating.

      • Yoles

        exactly!!! the universe is watching

    • http://brown-c6h12o6.tumblr.com/ AfroPetite

      *does heel toe all over discarded Brady jersey*

    • panamajackson

      Stunts, blunts, and…well, you know the rest.

    • Asiyah

      the Patriots were robbed of cheating.

      good day!