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The Psychic Toll Of Existing While Black

I’ve never been more conscious of the tenuousness of life and finality of death than I have been since I first considered marrying my now-wife. Bringing someone into my life — a person whose safety and well-being I volunteered to be personally accountable for — just changed things. It changed how I assess the present and conceptualize the future. It’s changing my understanding of a collective necessity versus an individual one, and changing (well, slowly changing) the frequency which my thoughts and actions come from that collective perspective.

These are things I expected. Partially because they’re intuitive expectations. But even if they weren’t intuitive, I was told enough times by enough people to expect them. What I did not expect — what no one prepared me for — was how hyperaware I became of being alive. Of just existing. My senses are more sensitive. I’m more perceptive, more aware. I just feel…more.

And, there’s no doubt this enhanced consciousness is due to also being more aware of — and, frankly, scared of — death. Both mine and hers.

Of course, being consumed with the idea of death is a fruitless exercise. To wit, I’ve been awake for three hours this morning. In that time, I could have been killed by dozens of different things. A car accident. A undetected shard of glass in the cup of orange juice I just drank. A fall down the stairs. A brain aneurysm. These are things that happen to people everyday. Mundane, ironic, and spectacular ways of dying that provide no lesson or moral other than the fact that there are mundane, ironic, and spectacular ways of dying.

But again, you can’t obsess about that, so most of us just do things to help stave off death (exercise, eat better, wear seatbealts, etc) without consciously thinking about it.

But being Black in America is also being hyper-conscious of how much more likely you are to be killed than anyone else, and of how there are certain types of deaths both unique to your Blackness and almost completely unpreventable. Basically, there’s a better than average likelihood of you getting killed, and a better than average likelihood that, if killed, there wouldn’t have been any reasonable steps you could have taken to prevent it. Most deaths — as mundane, ironic, and spectacular as they can be — make sense. Morbid sense, perhaps. But sense nonetheless. Getting shot while walking my dog or after getting pulled over because of an expired inspection sticker, does not.

Death itself is just part of the cost of being human. An inescapable surcharge for being allowed to live on Earth, and we grudgingly  accept that deal. Because, well, we have no choice. But this extra shit — this being aware of the fact that as long as you’re Black there’s a chance that everything you’ve done, everything that matters about you, everything you are and are trying to be, every step you’ve taken to lengthen and enhance the life you’re living with your wife, can one day come to an end just because you happen to be Black — is just fucking exhausting.

Damon Young

Damon Young is the editor-in-chief of VSB. He is also a columnist for GQ.com And he's working on a book of essays to be published by Ecco (HarperCollins). Damon is busy. He lives in Pittsburgh, and he really likes pancakes. Reach him at damon@verysmartbrothas.com. Or don't. Whatever.

  • The thing is that since you can’t control it, you don’t care. I know that not everyone can do that. I’m not sure we want to live in a world where absolutely no one gives a flying f*ck. But someone has to make that first step. Why not us?

    In terms of the cops, I just treat them as any other armed gang: with vague respect and strong wariness. Irony of ironies, I have a hs classmate who is a cop in South Carolina (Columbia to be precise). Last week, he seemed surprised that someone wearing a Hands Up Don’t Shoot t-shirt was very respectful to him. Other cops he knew managed to call him out, so I shut up. Still, that a Black an merely existing without being subservient is considered a threat is very interesting.

    Though, as said in Blazing Saddles, where the white women at? ;-)

    • Damon Young

      It’s easier to not give a f*ck if your life is the only one you’re concerned about/responsible for.

      • XYZ

        Exactly. Just wait until you have kids and it will feel even stronger.
        Your wife is an adult so you have that little assurance that she can and will try to protect herself. But kids….that’s a whole other ballgame. Kids cannot detect danger due to inexperience and youth so that puts us parents on extreme high alert at all times.

        • Absolutely.

          • Sigma_Since 93

            I was out this morning at the doctors with my son this morning. I find myself looking at him with wonder and a sliver of fear. This goofy teen could wear my 12 1/2 shoes at 14 and is almost taller than me (I’m 6’2). I worry about some meathead looking at my kind, goofy 16 year old as a menacing negro and looking to eliminate him. “Just make it back home” has never been more real to me.

      • Steph

        Add the wonderful beauty of raising two black male children in this world… Things started to get messy for me when I realized that in the next 5-7 years my little black boys will be looked at in a different manner than they are looked at now simply because they will have grown a few inches (maybe feet) and have the blessing of a darker hue. All of this has been too much for me to comprehend as a person let alone as a mother. I also am truly exhausted

        • Pay attention to that last sentence I said. It’s sad but true.

          • Rachmo

            Where the White women at?

            • Starbucks.

              • With Pumpkin Spice Lattes no less!

                • anonymous

                  Yall stupid!

            • This video probably explains the context….
              https://youtu.be/493pL_Vbtnc

              • Cleojonz

                For shame on those that didn’t already know lol.

              • Rachmo

                Haha I’ve seen the movie. I was referencing the last sentence in your comment.

      • TIffany Squared

        oblivion is and always will be a luxury.
        as a woman in New York, only directly responsible for myself, I’m guilty of “doing” in the face of the fear. over extending myself in activities that prove I am way too normal to be susceptible to things like the frequency and lack of reasoning behind black mortality. I’m busy being a professional, in spin class, at ratchet brunch…and even being very politically active (because nothing says you’re not the direct victim like fighting for the victim). After years of standing up, protesting, petition writing and listening to the stories from boyfriends, uncles and virtually every black man in my life – a part of me still felt like I wasn’t directly in the line of fire. I’m a woman, no sons, no husband. I never ignored the threat, but was pretty sure I could I so wanted.

      • Sigma_Since 93

        Folks have already said kids but I would also add your dad to the mix. There will be a point where you become their caregiver and worrying about allowing them to maintain their independence while attempting to keep people from preying on them.

        • Ah yes, the point in the parent/child relationship when the roles reverse.

        • There is so much truth in this statement.

        • cancergirl08

          This will be my main issue with moving too far away from my aging parents. I’m the only girl, single with no children. So I am positive that taking care of them will fall squarely into my lap in about 7-10 years.

      • I know I’m wired different than the average dude, but I figure it’s what you signed up for implicitly when getting married or having kids. I know my daughter depends on me, but I also know that I can only do so much. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck, but I also know I can only do so much.

      • Wild Cougar

        I’ve never understood this sentiment. I mean, I understand the logic, but I can’t feel that way.

  • Nicholas Peters

    Isn’t the most logical solution just to come up?……

    • Question

      That all sounds good in theory. What does it mean to “not leave ourselves economically, socially and politically exposed” in practice?

      And is that a realistic goal for the entirety of the Black community?

      • Nicholas Peters

        What else would you rather do keep marching, protesting, and looking for love while more people keep getting slaughtered…

        Black people are going to have to ween themselves off of depending on white people to fund our economy…not only because white people have their own problems…”End of the West…but because the main problem black people have is that they are powerless and dependent on people who aren’t black for most to all of their opportunity and vital resources…

        – money is power and anyone who has any power bows at the temple of the all mighty dollar. without economic empowerment is the ONLY way black people can save themselves…why do you think Rosewood and Black WallStreet happened? jealousy…

        • Val

          Black Nationalism? Okay, I’m down. But, it would be easier to found our own nation than to do it here, IMO.

          • DBoySlim

            True. I’ve always wanted to start my own town. A country might be better.

            • Val

              It’s fun to fantasize about building your own city and then doing some social engineering to populate it.

              • DBoySlim

                Solar streets, language immersion in schools, natural food laws and the like. It would be a real life Sim City.

          • Question

            I dunno – all the infrastructure stuff and building a sustainable economy sounds like a lot of work. I’d rather mooch off the economy we have here and just siphon off whichever pieces we choose to the benefit of Black folks…

            • Nicholas Peters

              that economy is going away…one, because white people are about to lose that #1 spot and they will not waste their economy on black people while losing that #1 spot

              #2….their is really no economic need for black people anymore…we were always supposed to fill the lower end of jobs and they have Hispanic people to do that now…and they demand less and don;t have the history.

              • Question

                What economy is going away? And what does all of that (what you posted) mean for Black folks??

                You’re framing Black people’s ability to create economic independence on the perception of White people, in a discussion about Black nationalism. At the root, isn’t that backwards thinking?

                I would take a different approach:

                A) Status Quo: There are sectors of the economy that aren’t going anywhere anytime soon (trades, that Latinos are currently using to build sustainable middle class communities). How can we better position black folks for those jobs?

                B) Predictive economics: Where is the economy headed and how can prepare ourselves for that economy?

                C) Economic penetration: How can those of us in positions to steer the those creating businesses) create opportunities for more of us to “infiltrate”?

                • Nicholas Peters

                  look @ the economies in Europe (especially in the eurozone) outside of Germany a lot of countries are struggling economically, even the US is past its prime and dependent on Asian countries to not only sustain their economy and defense. Also, the white population in the US and in Europe all have negative birth rates

                  • Question

                    The economies of most of the world are struggling, including ours. Our “struggles” are being hidden by government investment in infrastructure and growth is based solely on globalization (new customers for existing products) – however, if other economies continue to stagnate, ours will follow suit because global customers won’t be able to afford our products.

                    I disagree that the US is past its prime. The problem is that the US suffers from a lack of long term thinking which is evident in R&D spending being at its lowest in almost 70 years (as a percentage of GDP) and a lot of them stems from politics.

                    All of that to say – I disagree wholeheartedly about the US being “past its prime” and unsuitable for use as an economic vehicle for Black economic independence. We need to change our thinking.

            • Val

              Yeah, it would be a lot of work but it would be worth it to get away from racist Whites.

              • Question

                There are many Black nations already. What’s wrong with partnering with one already in existence?

                • Val

                  Most of those nations are still suffering from colonialism of the past. Also, we’d probably be seen as outsiders. A fresh start would do us good.

                  • Question

                    Realistically?

                    • Val

                      We control maybe a trillion dollars each year? A small group of us with the financial backing of 20% or so of Black folks and we’d have a nice chance. Jews did it with the creation of Israel so I’m confident we could do it too. Also, we might find we have more friends in the world as ex-patriots then we thought.

                  • Question

                    Where? How? With what resources?

                    Sounds great in theory. In reality? I got 5 on it. What’chu got?

                • Epsilonicus

                  They do not view us as one of them or worth partnering with

                  • It’s more complicated than that…far more complicated than that.

                    Nationalism isn’t compatible with Africans, and the only way to establish it is through dictatorship in the long run, which is why Africa has been loaded with dictators for most of it’s history since independence, not merely because of left over colonialism, like many people in the West like to believe. People are willing to join together, in the interest of fighting a common enemy, but that is not a permanent condition, and once any moment of stability comes about and the enemy withdraws his influence (even if it’s slightly), that nationalistic energy tends to devolve into infighting where the vitriol aimed at the common enemy, is redirected at your own people…it happened in Africa, and it happened with the Black Panthers.

                    Africans have to be more precautious of the dark side of unity on a grand scale, because they’ve seen what it can lead to: civil war. Black people in America have never really had one, so they still get easily seduced by the idea of creating a great grandiose economy, or society, without taking into consideration that human nature, kinship and individuality are the anti-thesis to unity and it’s something that people will fight, and die for to protect at the expense of unity, especially when their living existence is not directly in survival mode. Trying to solve the problems of black people, while ignoring the intricacies of human nature on the most basic level, only guarantees that you will constantly fail at your task, and grow to hate the same people, you are trying to save, because they aren’t as plastic as you think they are.

                    • Epsilonicus

                      I agree. But also from my experience, many Africans don’t view us as even worth the consideration. Some of the most vitriolic language I have seen used against Black Americans has come from Africans. I thinks it a both/and situation.

                    • I no doubt agree with that. I have to deal with it due to the fact I’ve always claimed being Black American as much as being African (I was born in the U.S. and most of my life has been spent here), but I don’t think it’s necessary. I’ve gotten it from both sides lol. However, Southern white folks and Northern white folks don’t generally like each other, most Europeans spent the first WW1 and WW2 killing each other off, yet white supremacy, so to speak, still remains.

                      People need a common interest to bond them together, where they equally benefit, they might not like each other (no one likes the Jews, but they are valuable, and working with them is beneficial and profitable), regardless of if they are well liked or not. Nigerians, in Africa are usually hated for being arrogant and proud, yet people can’t stop watching and buying our movies, where we mostly mock ourselves (I’m still of the opinion that Tyler Perry stole his movie ideas from Nigeria lol). Entertainment and Money are common interest that have bonded human beings far more than the pursuit of grand causes or love of humanity, or even security, all which can do the same, but only on a temporary basis.

          • DBoySlim

            The first and most difficult step would be to acquire unused and viable land.

            • Val

              We’d have to decide whether we were going to acquire land peacefully or by force. Both have their benefits.

        • Question

          I totally get it, and I’m with it.

          I ask the question more because I think when people speak of “weening themselves off depending on white people to fund our economy” its made with a very specific subset of the Black community in mind. Sure, most of us on VSB, are in a position to live that goal – but what about the rest of us? I’m asking if there are enough of Us (the bougies) to make this a realistic goal for the greater Black community or are we slowly moving to a greater SES divide within the Black community…?

          Honestly, I think the Black Economic Independence movement is already happening, albeit, in a fragmented way. At b-school, most of my Black peers were all about going and working for the “man” to earn the necessary experience and then setting off on their own to make changes and bring it back to the community. And I’ve heard of similar conversations being had at Law and Medical school programs…all of that to say, it’ll be interesting to see what things look like ~20 years from now.

    • Andrea

      Didn’t you hear. They usually execute you for trying to do that. You see how that Poor People’s campaign turned out for Martin. Crucified. Ghandi. Crucified. Jesus. Crucified. Any Jew in the first century…..the Romans….Crucified.

      • KB

        Ghandi was racist towards blacks, so bah to anything he says.

        • Andrea

          Welp. They kilt him dead too. So there’s that.

    • Andrea

      I think your right. That it is time for a more just society. Forgive me. I like to turn to theology during times like these. My therapist is very supportive of it. Much prefers it to the #I’veBeenDrankin or #SolvingMyProblemsWithCake

      I hope the Scott death ushers in resurrection. And I use the word the way I believe they used the word in the the first century. Where the resurrection is about if the world is being changed to a more just place?

      Analogous to how I believe that Jesus died as the climax of all the suffering of Israel, the consummation of all those prayers of lament in psalms, as the fulfillment of all the martyrs of the biblical tradition eg. John the Baptist. #theyKiltHimToo

      Just as back then you can’t say the resurrection has begun if you can’t point to it. Like Paul had to talk about why he’s been traveling so much and the communities that were forming because of it to illustrate where the change was.

      I feel like I can point to body cameras as change. I feel like I can point to the arrest of the officer as change. I have faith he will be convicted. And that is personal change.

      • RewindingtonMaximus

        The changes are minna and they have loop holes. Within a few instances, those loopholes will be exploited and we will be b a ck to square one. Even this current video, all it proves is the officer really did murder someonw, but will visible pretty proof sway jurors to actually penalize him, or is he about be saved by White Martin’s like so many others? I mean, the man already has an Indiegogo page someone made for him to support him financially for his case.

        The change we are asking for, what are willing to do to grasp it once and for all? That’s what I need to know before it’s just another talking point

  • KB

    To be black in America is to have the constant self-awareness that your very existence can (and sometimes will) be deemed as a threat to others. As you become older (whether you get married/have children or not) this awareness becomes more clear the older you become. I’m single without kids, yet I think about my nieces and nephews and the harsh realities they will face as they become older, especially when it finally dawns on them how the world will view them in such a harsh, negative way simply because of their skin tone. We must teach our kids not only about how to make something of yourself in life, but also how to survive as a black man/woman.

    SN: I want this on a shirt.

    • Nicholas Peters

      then the answer is for black people to just protect themselves?

      • Sigma_Since 93

        I’ve always joked if you want to see true gun reform, have a legion of Black folks legally buy guns at the local gun shows and pawn shops.

        • Question

          Instant national gun control.

        • Amber

          I tell folks that all of the time. I even just say go get a gun permit that’s all you need and watch how things change.

        • Cleojonz

          Except that gun reform won’t save us from racist cops. Most of these recent incidents of our people dying aren’t from serial killers. But I agree with you, that is when it would finally happen.

          • Val

            We need the original Black Panthers again. They armed themselves and followed the cops to make sure they didn’t harm Black folks.

            • Question

              …and did some much more than that. School breakfast and lunch programs. Improving urban school systems.

              • Epsilonicus

                Now now now. All they do is scare white people away from voting *insert sarcasm here*

              • K Lust

                Throwback Oakland. My father always tells me about how those school lunches helped him sooo much.

                • Question

                  My Uncle does too.

                  Sidebar: new Black Panther documentary was released earlier this year – THE BLACK PANTHERS: VANGUARD OF THE REVOLUTION. I want to check it out.

                  • K Lust

                    I heard about that! Saw the trailer, it looks extremely insightful.
                    Oakland still has a political aura so to speak. But it’s nothing like the Black Panthers era. They got shit DONE.

              • Val

                Yep but I’m going to put keeping killer cops at bey on top of the list.

            • RewindingtonMaximus

              We need an organization period we can all believe in. That’s what we lack first and foremost. We don’t trust a damn thing

              • Question

                Truth be told, we don’t trust each other to a certain extent.

                • RewindingtonMaximus

                  Exactly. That’s why whenever people say what we should do, I know it’s a pipe dream. How do we combat White America when we are still enemies to each other?

                  • Question

                    And this is why I ask the question about “who” we are we talking about. The Black community isn’t monolithic. Are we talking about e’rybody, or just the Bougies? In these types of conversations, folks are usually talking about the Bougies, and the middle & low income folks interested in change…not e’rybody else.

                    • RewindingtonMaximus

                      True, because we don’t take the time out to understand EVERYBODY. We stick to folks who share our views and that’s it

                • Val

                  I think of all things we trust each other the most. It’s the world around us we don’t trust.

                  • Question

                    Broadly? I don’t know – I know there is still a chunk of the community that thinks white is better. They’ve bought into stereotypes about Black people or see the ability to purchase “White” as a sign of their own personal progress. Its problematic thinking…but that’s a totally different topic.

                • That’s true, but I think it also comes from a lack of respect as well, for ourselves as producers and consumers.

                  This is one of the reasons why I have doubts about a lot of the pro-group economics people – they have an attitude that makes me skeptical, that they are willing to sell to black customers.

                  Take for instance this black guy whose an entrepreneur goes shopping one day and then he sees people buying some Smart water in the big bottles for like $1.99 a bottle. He says to himself, “Hmmm…why don’t I do this for black people?” So he goes to visit Africa and visits a spring and then he’s like “Eureka…Motherland H2O!” So he markets the water, as being straight up from African Springs and being water that is pure, non-chemicals, and containing the juju power of the ancestors. But because he has to import the water, it ends up costing $4.00 a bottle.

                  Initially, the black guy gets customers, because what he’s doing is fresh, and creative, plus there’s always a group of conscious people who are looking for products to show that they support black business. However, consumer behavior 101, no body is going to keep spending $4.00 for a bottle of water unless they have the money to waste. So under such circumstances, a regular business person would have to find ways to cut costs, market more, and perhaps diversify into other products…which is the attitude that I think is lacking from a lot of people who want black businesses, but hope that racial solidarity will replace the laws of supply and demand…it never has, and never will.

                  • Question

                    Completely agreed. My “we don’t trust each other” comment wasn’t intended as an attempt to pathologize Black people, but just as an observation – and that mistrust didn’t come from nowhere, and in many ways was instilled in us by people outside the community in order to further control us.

                    I would argue that we need to think differently about businesses. Why are you going to Africa to get motherland water – water is one of the heaviest things to ship (I know you used it as an example, but I think there’s something to it)? In many ways, we limit how we think about businesses to Black needs and Black/pan-African branding, which while important (I’m not discounting the need and importance of a good deep-conditioner), are also difficult to build sustainable community-changing businesses based on.

                    • Lol, I know it’s a lame example. But that wasn’t necessarily my point.

                      I think we see eye to eye though that business involves creating a product that people are willing to buy and buy consistently. I think community empowerment, political power, is all secondary, but you have to bring in the money first, and that usually is the hardest part. It’s the same attitude that makes people think that what Dame Dash said was profound…it’s not simply about ownership, it’s about production, selling, marketing, profit etc.

                  • afronica

                    Watching Shea Moisture’s pivot from us to them is a current illustration of the ineradicable rules of commerce.

                    • Yeh people have been trading way before the concept of race ever existed or was imagined. Race isn’t powerful enough to change that fact.

              • Val

                After 500 years of being bamboozled it only seems logical that we would be a cynical bunch, don’t you think.

                • RewindingtonMaximus

                  Indeed but how good has cynicism been to us lately? We are more divided than ever.

              • Wild Cougar

                sounds like its you who doesn’t trust us

                • RewindingtonMaximus

                  I don’t trust anyone or anything. I know that’s my problem right off the bat

            • FKALLthisBull

              Nobody wants that Val. Blacks are too undivided. Black men too busy chasing white azz to talk about coming together. And black women too busy working on their best token negro poses at the workplace. I grew up loving blackness and my people. But we just talk about it. The real people speaking up are seen as RADICAL or RACIST to whites or as if we are trying to stay in the past? Yeah the past 5 days where wfolks keep killing us and justifying through fear and self perceived imperial whiteness. FK THEM. And these NEW BLACK PACIFYIST negroes too.

        • KB

          You know what happened when the black panthers showed up armed and walked up to the steps of the capitol building in California when Ronald Reagan was governor. Gun control laws were passed like the very next day.

          • Sigma_Since 93

            yup

    • Epsilonicus

      I am about to get working on it.

      • KB

        I am going to need a copy sir

        • Epsilonicus

          I am already talking to 3 people about it

          • KB

            email me at keithbush17@gmail.com when you have one available for purchase.

          • Sigma_Since 93

            Add met to the list

          • Freebird

            ill buy one of those.

  • “The longer you live the more reasons you have to, the more reasons you have to the longer you want to live” – Someone, or i made that up it sounds like something someone said before, maybe i should just Columbus it. Whatever.

    • uniquebeauty79

      That is so true. There is something about being responsible for someone else. There is a love that nothing can surpass and knowing that you are the one entrusted to take care of this special person just makes you want to do and be better.

    • RewindingtonMaximus

      Life is based on creating a purpose to continue living. And everything on this planet has a reason to survive. We as humans are the only creatures that have multiple reasons and choices we create to keep living. That has to mean something to people in the long run

    • I Columbus all the time…just not when I’m in school lol

  • Sigma_Since 93

    There was a rap lyric that always resonated with me. “I got a lot more to lose that you’ve got to gain” You and Mrs. Champ will labor to buy a house, have kids, and create a delagtion of responsibilities that works for the two of you. You are learning that anything that can disrupt the peace is an issue you will spend time looking to eradicate. If only dealing with the sins of our skin were that easy.

  • uNk

    ..

  • uNk

  • uNk

    “But this extra sh!t–”

    Bro this is what upsets me when white ppl fail to understand the flood of emotions black folk go through. Not only do we have to put up with the life struggles every human is bound to go through but maaaaaan we have deal with being black too? like still? Some white ppl just think if they not happy all the way then its some extra sh!t….nah… thats just the norm

  • RewindingtonMaximus

    As I type this, I’m home recovering from a surgery I had yesterday to remove the rest of a huge infected keloid from the back of my head, that was spreading an infection into my spine and also made a hole in my head. Yes, an actual hole.

    I’ve had so many surgeries that it is normal to me. But my wife, I see fear on her face every time I’m about to go under the knife. I never cared much for my own mortality after a certain point. I’ve faced death so many times and came out the victor (hit by cars, surgery malpractice, being robbed at gun point, having my head bashed by a metal dumpster, etc). But every moment she is here, I’m forced to realize she depends on my mortality remaining in tact. I was never ready for this realization and I’m still not, quite frankly.

    I can only say this. From the moment I wake up until the moment I wake up again the next day, death is always somewhere close by, especially for a Black man. But I’m learning death isn’t my main concern. It’s leaving her before she gets a chance to say goodbye that concerns me. So I’m trying to live more than ever just because of that fact. And you will do the same Champ. And Panama will do the same for his kids. We can’t defy death, but we can give meaning to our lives, despite everything around us that tries to take that away from us

    • Andrea

      Sending hugs and healing ENERGY. Wishing you a peaceful recovery. Your heart is Filled to capacity with the Love of your Wife and friends.
      And I hope your enjoying some good drugs :)

      • RewindingtonMaximus

        You’re too damn sweet l. I’m ok though, things went better than I thought. I want to keep her happy even though I don’t know how, but I think the drugs are gonna do that for me at least for these first few weeks.

        • Andrea

          That’s so great to hear! You probably don’t realize how Happy you make her buy PERSISTING the way you do. Surgery after surgery. Setbacks…Infections…. You continue to WIN. Bearing witness to your tenacity must be a daily Miracle for your wife. Your ability to transcend countless obstacles makes HER stronger. Because now she knows it is possible.

          • RewindingtonMaximus

            That’s an interesting way to put it. She said something similar to that this morning. I really never thought of it that way, but I’m feeling a lot more aware of this information lately

    • h.h.h.

      We can’t defy death, but we can give meaning to our lives, despite everything around us that tries to take that away from us

      wise words sir

      *sends you a DJ Scratch-N-Sniff Mix to jumpstart the hateration*

      • RewindingtonMaximus

        Lmao good sir, trust I appreciate that

    • Val

      Hang in there, Rewind.

      *eHUG*

      • RewindingtonMaximus

        Thanks sweetie, I appreciate it

    • Sigma_Since 93

      Get well brotha.

      • RewindingtonMaximus

        Appreciate it big homie

    • Freebird

      get well my dude.

      • RewindingtonMaximus

        Thanks man, I will, trust that

    • Kema

      May your recovery be swift!

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