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Is This What Growed Up Feels Like?

The only NWA I can get with nowadays! Take that Dr. Dre!

Personal growth is a motherlover. Especially when you don’t see it coming. And in some ways it can make you ashamed of who you were just hours before. Or make you call into question decisions you made that led to you making it to the point where you could realize growth that you now have hours later that you didn’t have hours before you experienced said growth.


What am I talking about? Glad you asked.

The other day I was rollin’ in my ’64. Actually it’s an ’07 but who’s counting. Well except for me. Moving on. So I was rolling down the street smoking indo, sippin’ on gin and juice (none of that is true either). As of late my favorite thing to do is pick a Pandora station and kill the battery on my iPhone. Usually its set to either the Patrice Rushen station or the David Axelrod station. Well this fine day, I decided to roll down my windows and blast some of that good ole ignant music I love so much. So I punched in three letters that are world famous:




One of my favorite albums of all time is EFIL4ZAGGIN. Dr. Dre was at his producerial essence on this album and despite its themes (put a pin in that, we’ll get back to this shortly) its a hip-hop masterpiece of beats, rhymes, and life and is sonic perfection. So anyway, I punch in NWA and Eazy E’s “Boyz N Tha Hood” comes on. Okay. Dopeboy anthems have always been one of my favorites and especially since I’m a West Coast music head, there wasn’t much better.

Then it happened.

“Just Don’t Bite It (She Swallowed It)” came on.

Oh. My. God.

Dude, this has to be at LEAST one of the 5 MOST ignorant songs in hip-hop history. Ever. Hell, so is “Automobile” off the same album. Actually so is “Find ’em, F*ck ’em, and Flee” on that same album. You know what, f*ck it, EFIL4ZAGGIN is one of the most ignorant pieces of art ever created and sold in commercial outlets. Like seriously…gotd*amn. As I listened to this song (and I know the words by heart) I almost felt ashamed of myself.

Actually, I did feel ashamed of myself. In that one song is rape, statutory rape, complete and utter disregard for women, rampant and blatant misogyny, etc etc etc. Honestly, I kind of wondered how ANYBODY could make a song like that and then say to themselves, “wow, this sh*t is dope.” Dumbfounded. I’m the blast my music loud type of mofo. I turned my stereo ALL the way down as I listened and thought about what I was listening to. I don’t know if it’s because I’m a father to a daughter now or what, but man…


Randomly: I’m not from the West Coast, but it seems like a common theme in nearly ALL early 90s West Coast hiphop involved running trains on women. Um, what the hell is wrong with ninjas in Cali??? Even Ice Cube, arguably the more sensible one of NWA, and the only one to give any of their music any type of substantive element was full of statutory rape and just outright violent disregard for women. I’m not gonna say that it was a West Coast thing, it has been a hip-hop thing, but the abject clarity spoken on those songs is almost disturbing at times.

And I realize that in the hood, things happen. A lot of women involved are willing participants. But who the hell commits sh*t like that to immortality via master recordings? I suppose the same goes with the violent, murder murder murder stuff too.

Obviously, this was is all very conflicting for me because I’m a hip-hop head to the heart. But some of that sh*t just crossed/crosses the line and I’m really curious as to how ANYBODY could make that music. Like, if I could interview MC Ren right now, I’d say, “Ren take me through your thought process when you wrote the lyrics for “Just Don’t Bite It 2 (She Swallowed It)”. Does any of it strike you as not right?”

I’m trying not to chastise my beloved hip-hop and it’s not like I’m going to stop listening to it, but listening to that song shamed the motherf*ck out of me because I couldn’t believe that I used to love it H.E.R. and also that somebody actually made that…somebody with a mama. Maybe this is what growing up starts to feel like. Maybe I already did seeing as how I haven’t listened to anything N.W.A. related in years at this point, partially for this reason and because I have a daughter that I have to raise to love herself.

But egads man…what a lesson. So I wonder, good folks out there, have you had any similar type of “aha” growth moment? If it involved NWA, you and me? We >< here.

Talk to me.


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Panama Jackson

Panama Jackson is pretty fly (and gorgeous) for a light guy. He used to ship his frito to Tito in the District, but shipping prices increased so he moved there to save money. He refuses to eat cocaine chicken. When he's not saving humanity with his words or making music with his mouth, you can find him at your mama's mama's house drinking her fine liquors. Most importantly, he believes the children are our future. You can hit him on his hitter at

  • aceklub

    My #oldhead chronicles had a new entry last week. Eating a bowl of cereal, I thought to myself ” why don’t they put toys in cereal anymore.” Then I realized that I no longer eat the type of cereal that qualifies for a toy.

  • That Ugly Kid

    “In that one song is rape, statutory rape, complete and utter disregard for women, rampant and blatant misogyny, etc etc etc. Honestly, I kind of wondered how ANYBODY could make a song like that and then say to themselves, ‘wow, this sh*t is dope.'”

    So I take it you don’t listen to Odd Future. Earl Sweatshirt and Tyler The Creator are great lyricists (ESPECIALLY Earl). But most people can’t get over the fact that 90% of their music is mentions rape and murder. Oh well. They’re dope though.

    My grown moment happened in high school. My junior year I made a bet with my homie about who can mess around with the most girls simultaneously. I won with 5. So my senior year I decided to be on my grown man sh*t and stick to one chick and look for “wifey”. My life has sucked ever since. I’m 22, I’m too young to look for a wife. So I think I should regress back to my junior year ways and just have fun. Get my gigalo on, if you will.

  • aceklub

    seeing that I may have been first has just produced another #oldhead moment. Being first to post a comment…not for the joy of being first but b/c I can’t ignore sleep like I used to.

  • Jay

    My grown moment happened in high school.

    This statement is oxymoronic sir.

  • I have grown aha moments, every couple of hours.

  • Val

    I used to watch Oprah back in the day until I realized that she was being a Mammy for White America. Her job was to comfort middle-aged White women. And what made it even worse was that she would sometimes do it by presenting Black folks as stereotypes as a way of saying, ‘yes Black people are exactly who you think they are so you can relax, you’re not a racist’. Her show was kind of like if the film The Help came on everyday at 4pm.

    Hopefully I won’t get a too much of a cyber-beat down from Oprah stans but that was (one) of my moments of clarity.

  • streetzpoet

    I feel where youre coming from…the other day i was listening to “Creepin On Ah Come Up” and the song “No Surrender” came on…there’s a line in that song goes “and im coming to the funeral to shoot that b*tch up/cuz i know thats where yall b*tches is bout to meet up…” All i could think was “*sigh…is all that even necessary…?” And i guess im a hypocrite because i cant stand a lot of the newer mainstream rap artists but my favorite artists were doing the same/similar things 15 years ago…

  • MJoy

    This post makes me think of porn. You watch it, you love it, you come, then your viewing shifts from absolute pleasure to downright disgust. Two minutes ago it was the best thing in the world but now that the deed is done you can’t help but think, “these people are disgusting! I can’t believe people actually agree to do this! Dude, that’s somebody’s daughter!!!” you grow in the moment. Then u regress yo azz right back the next time it’s time to watch.

  • Jay

    I’m totally at peace with my “old head” moments because they usually come when I’m seeing through some bullsh*t that I used to fall for or just acquiring more game, and I don’t mean primarily with women. I mean game in the sense of understanding more so how the world actually works.

  • So, because I like to be informed, I went and listened to this song.

    That was my bad…

    To answer the posed question. Once when I was babysitting my 3 yr old nephew. For some reason, I thought we could eat the same diet of sugar, sugar and more sugar. He was perfectly fine bouncing off the walls, I, however, was left puking over the toilet.

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