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I’m 29, And I’m An Aspiring Rapper (I’m Also A Lawyer, But Don’t Let That Stop You From Judging)

There’s a duality in a lot of the shit that we millenials are. I say “that” rather than “who” because, in the circles we run in, so much focus is on the action rather than the person. Five minutes into a conversation with my fellow urban professionals  — you know, my brunch party goin’, #travelnoire hashtag usin’, go to the museum but still Juicy J lovin’, “what’s the last good book you read?” askin’ counterparts — and you’re gonna hear “So, what do you do?

Well, here’s where the eyebrows raise for me. I tell people I make really awesome rap music. Almost uniformly, dudes dismissively go, “Hmm, that’s wassup,” before going to retrieve their next drink. Or, even better, the women go, “Soooo how do you actually make a living?” To that one, I always hesitate. I scrunch up my face and say “Ummmmmmmm, well, I’m an attorney.

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Then, I get the “Ohhhhhhhh, ok!” Now, I’m in. Now, I’m accepted. In seconds, I go from the “wannabe” to the “already is.” If you meet me, I probably look somewhere in between, to be honest. My style is a bit too formal for your “rap nigga” category but, I guess still too relaxed to look like somebody’s lawyer. Nevermind the fact that I actually am both. Who needs facts when we have pre-conceived notions to keep us warm at night though, right? But wait, here comes the confusion. “So, you’re a lawyer trying to be a rapper? How does that work? You rap about the courtroom, lol?” they ask.

No, you lame ass muhfucka. That’s literally the worst, most terrible thing you’ve thought of today and I know I just met you but, I’m giving you the benefit of the doubt. Well, that’s what I want to say, at least. I keep my composure, though. After all, these people may be my future friends, fans, clients etc. Can’t be burning no bridges.

So, here’s the thing: Everybody has dreams, right? Mine happen to be creative in nature. Yours may or may not be but, that’s all good, too. When you’ve actually made a decision to pursue those dreams though, that’s when you realize how much of an island you’re really on. That’s when you realize that, before anyone believes in you, you have to think and do all on your own. That means you’re self-funding your start-up. You’re financing your app design. You’re buying your own cameras or, in my case, you’re pressing up your own CDs and planning your own performances…all of which costs money.

So, I tell my inquisitive but confused peers, “Being an attorney is my job.” I’m either gonna be an indie artist slangin’ these nuggets at the Chick Fil-A or, I can be fortunate enough to make a lil’ more money as a lawyer to invest back into these dreams. It’s that simple. When you’re a firm believer in doing whatever the fuck you want to do well, that’s what you do. At the end of the day, my dreams make me happy. I bet your dreams make you happy, too. Go do them, go live them, go be them. Here’s the honest truth: If you can’t roll that shit out on your own, you’re just gonna be waiting on someone else to make your dreams happen and that cannot fly, bro. It just can’t. That’s prison. And, despite all the craziness going on in this country right now, we is free people.

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Gilles Walters

There is a 100% chance that Gilles will correct you if you mispronounce his name. Just so you know, it's like more than one Jill. He raps his ass off just so he can have an excuse to tailor his jeans. After making his life's mission to get Plies' Instagram page on Netflix, he rarely has time to practice law, but still tries.

  • MzzPeaches

    You had me at “my fellow urban professionals — you know, my brunch party goin’, #travelnoire hashtag usin’, go to the museum but still Juicy J lovin’, “what’s the last good book you read?” askin’ counterparts —”

    and THIS “When you’re a firm believer in doing whatever the fuck you want to do well, that’s what you do. At the end of the day, my dreams make me happy. I bet your dreams make you happy, too. Go do them, go live them, go be them.”

    • You had me at

      “my fellow urban professionals — you know, my brunch party goin’, #travelnoire hashtag usin’, go to the museum but still Juicy J lovin’, “what’s the last good book you read?” askin’ counterparts —”

      ——-

      I read that, too, and immediately looked over my shoulder like, “Who’s been following me?”

      • MzzPeaches

        Ikr! If he would have thrown in a jab at brunch & game nights I was about to put on a tin foil hat lol

  • PhlyyPhree

    Sooooo…..

    What DO you rap about?
    Like wheres the link to the soundcloud bruh’?

    Lol.
    In all seriousness, a lot of us were brought up to “make the money and THEN go follow your dreams”. At least, I know that’s how I was raised. The thing is, after being trained to work all their lives, most people don’t have the first clue on how to follow their dreams when the time comes so they look with disdain upon the people who are doing so.

    • Aly
      • PhlyyPhree

        Google wins again!!!
        I’m so lazy. Thanks for enabling me boo!

      • Instagram SuperModel

        Liking the windows tinted and righteous ratchet.

    • heyheyno

      That’s the truth! Trained to work then follow dreams. I’m so far into what I don’t want to do I don’t know if I can redirect myself to my dream.

  • Henrock

    Brah. Either your mom, best friend or girl need to have a sit down conversation with you. Till that time comes live your dream

  • Aly

    Good luck.

  • CrayolaGirl

    Good luck on this. I’m in ATL, the land of music industry dreams well after the age of “regular” discovery and success. I don’t know the odd but if you believe, you may achieve.

  • DBoySlim

    Live your dreams man. I work at a bank but I still make music. I might not ever make a dime but the art is what I live for.

  • Andie

    I really like Commencement!!!!

  • Agatha Guilluame

    So many rappers. But when do you let dreams die?

  • Godspeed man. I’m happy you have the lawyer thing to always ride with.

  • Good luck man.

    This reminds me of a story that Jamie Foxx said about how he began his music career in L.A, while being a comedian. He’d basically go to a spot to do his comedy act and then after that he’d go after all the women who showed up and pass out flyers to a party at his spot, either the same night or a few days later. He’d then make sure he only invited dudes who he knew were on their A-game, so they wouldn’t go out there and with all their thirst chase all these women away and give his parties a bad reputation.

    He’d then send out word to other artists in the area who were trying to get some of their music out there. As his parties grew, and bigger named people started to show up, he’d play his own music during some parties just for a bit. Before long, he started getting future stars in his spot coming in trying to get some of their music out there at his parties…and one of the best examples of this was Kanye’s Slow Jamz, which was actually performed at one of Foxx’s parties before Kanye even had a record deal.

    • HeyBooHey

      I heard that too, he said now it’s almost like jam sessions at his house and everybody who’s anybody stops through. Never know what something small can grow into later

      • Well, hey, ancient wisdom:

        “Where there are many women, opportunity is abundant.”

    • FILTHIER

      Oh boo hoo hoo dude. Get out your feelings. So rap has a reputation. Just be the exception and stop feeling judged.

      • Lol wait what?

        • FILTHIER

          Sorry I replied to the wrong message. I was oh boo hooing to lawyer rapper, not to you:)

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