I realized something a few days ago. And Iâ€™m not quite sure how to say this so I might as well just say it straight up.
I like being lied to.
Yes, apparently as a fan of mainstream hip-hop, I appreciate being lied to by some of my favorite artists.
Notice I said, MAINSTREAM rap. For all of you bohoâ€™s out there who will think this is an indictment on ALL rap, please read the preceeding sentence again. Go ahead. Iâ€™ll wait.
*humming Eminemâ€™s â€œIâ€™ll Kill Youâ€*
N.W.A. lied to me constantly, Mobb Deep lied to me.
T.I. lies to me. Rick Ross lies to me. Lil Wayne lies to anybody who will listen. Common is lying to us all now. Well you get the point. These ninjas are all lying because they continue to write all of these tales of their current street acumen and all of the weapons they travel with and the drugs they currently slang, etc.
And I am a fan.
Now granted, I donâ€™t actually believe any of these dudes do half of the sh*t they claim to do. I donâ€™t believe that Rick Ross is moving that much snow in the hood or that T.I. is still moving blow in the hood. I donâ€™t believe that any of these dudes have murdered anybody, with the possible exception of 50 Cent and thatâ€™s strictly due to one line on his song â€œProblem Childâ€ from like 2003:
â€œthey say you can never repay the price for taking a manâ€™s life/Iâ€™m in debt with Christ cuz I done did that twiceâ€ â€“ 50 Cent
Iâ€™ll admit, I do question the veracity of that statement and maybe it just sounds good in rhyme. But, errrum, most rappers tell you that they WILL kill you, as in future tense. 50 says that he HAS done it. Somehow, that makes me a little nervous. Luckily he isnâ€™t in any jeopardy of going to Heaven anyway as I do in fact believe his posters are plastered through the Great Hall of Hades as one of the biggest proponents of Hell.
But for the most part, I donâ€™t believe most of these rappers. And Iâ€™m not saying that none of these dudes sold drugs. Iâ€™m sure that T.I. did as Iâ€™m sure that Jay-Z did. Iâ€™m sure 50 Cent did as well as a slew of other rappers. Of course, there are lots of questions about how big these â€œdrug dealersâ€ were as even Biggieâ€™s own people have said that he wasnâ€™t nearly the drug dealer he claimed to be. Many of these dudes do indeed have the soul of hustlers so I believe that many of them have done SOME of the things they claim in rhyme. Letâ€™s just say that amongst the lies they share resides some segment of truth.
But between all of the murders these rappers claim to be willing to commit and all of the weight that they claim to be moving and the fact that I donâ€™t actually believe any of them are as big time as they claim, it just seems that I like being lied to. I mean, I buy into it as it relates to their persona on wax. And somehow, they seem to buy into their own stories enough to convince me to buy into them. And Iâ€™m not alone. For some strange reason, as far as our mainstream rappers go, with the possible exception of Kanye West, we all like to hear about how hard these dudes are and we can easily look past the fact that their entire catalog is filled with odes to drug slanging and killinâ€™ ninjas on the block.
Now for the life of me, I canâ€™t figure out why Iâ€™ll let this type of sh*t slide. The lies, I mean. Most normal people detest liars. People that will lie to you are the very people youâ€™d not want to be around. Yet in mainstream rap, being able to convince people of your street respectability, be it fabricated or not, is paramount. If somebody found out that Kenny Rogers had never played a game of poker, well, how upset would the country music world be? Or what if the Dixie Chicks were from Canada? Or what if Guns â€˜N Roses didnâ€™t live the life they sang about? Of course, thatâ€™s an impossibility because if youâ€™ve seen the vh1 Behind The Music on the Guns, youâ€™d realize, them white boys and Slash were nuckinâ€™ futs.
I guess this all ties into the very notion that even as an educated black man, respect and pride are very important. I live in a black neighborhood and you donâ€™t want anybody to even think about wanting to mess with you. Somehow, these are the problems we concern ourselves with. So I sometimes walk around with this air of â€œdonâ€™t f*ck with me or this might be a bad day for youâ€. We all know Iâ€™m as gangsta as they come, but we also all know that I purchased a Hillary Duff CD. The key is to not let anybody else know it. And I think this is a problem that is unique to the black man experience. I could be wrong, but it seems to me that we spend a lot of time trying to scare the bejesus out of white and black people. Hell, we donâ€™t have anything elseâ€¦all we have is our respect.
Or so we say.
And maybe thatâ€™s why we like to be lied to so much. We spend so much time trying to be the dude that everybody wouldnâ€™t want to mess with, kind of as a manifestation of our idea of self-preservation, that despite the sheer impossibility of many of these rappers claims, we see them as a lot like us, even if we may come from totally different circumstances. Right?
I remember during the last episode of Season 3 of The Wire, after Stringer Bell, had been gangstaliciously murdered by Omar and Brother Mouzone, Detective McNulty was in Stringerâ€™s apartment looking through his books and possessions and couldnâ€™t believe the types of books String had been reading. It was so astounding to him he wondered aloud who in the hell was he chasing?
I wonder if a lot of these dudes are indeed like that. They all seem to look up to Tupac and we know the intelligent hoodlum he was. I know a lot of people donâ€™t like Tupac as a rapper, and I have my days as well, but as a person he was the epitome of the young black man so many of us wish to be. Educated but respected by all. He had the pedigree, he had the struggle, he had the ability to rise above it, and he went out in a blaze of glory. Actually, nix that last part, Iâ€™d rather go out while drinking some Kool-Aid when Iâ€™m 98.
All in all, I wonder if the reason we love being lied to so much is because so many of us spend time lying to ourselves about who we really are. From white suburban â€œthugsâ€ to some of the inner-city black â€œthugsâ€. Yeah the white boys get to grow out of it, but so many of us black men still fall victim to the idea that we have to be able to be respected in the streets, at age 30.
So yes, I like being lied too. Hell, I enjoy it thoroughly. And I think I donâ€™t pay much attention to it because in some kind of weird way, I understand.
Besides, if I want honesty, Iâ€™ll just listen to Milli Vanilli.
So what about you? Do you like being lied to as well or do you even pay attention anymore?
-VSB P aka THE ARSONIST aka MR. GIVE ME A REASON TO LOVE YOU BACK aka GIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRL HE A 3